Wednesday, September 17, 2008

First Steps, Just In Time

Caleb took his first steps on Friday night!!!

It was/is very exciting, and I am so proud of him! It still freaks him out a little, realizing he can take a step, and not fall, without holding on to anything anymore. In the past few days he's made teeny-tiny improvements. It's just adorable to see the emotions playing over his face: uncertainty, fear, pride, confusion.

I was so excited and relieved that he did take those very first steps on Friday night, as Eric left on Saturday afternoon for his week-long hunting trip with Dad. I kept praying that Caleb wouldn't be his mischevious self and wait until Eric had left. It was so special that the three of us shared those moments together. I love them so much; there just aren't words to express it.

So this is our fourth night apart. It's pretty rough. I just try to keep focusing on how much fun Eric and Dad must be having up there in the woods, rather than projecting my fears for their safety, etc. It's strange how empty the house seems without him. There is less light, less life. It's been nearly a year and a half since we moved in together, and I've quite gotten used to having him around all the time.

I'm getting ready to go to sleep though, and I don't want to magnify these lonely feelings. Night is the worst without him. Lucky man, getting to sleep under the stars. (As long as it doesn't snow...)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

New Beginning, New Name

So yet again I've embarked on a new online journal.
I suppose it's fitting, right? A new phase of life, a new journal.

The name I chose for this one suits me: Considering Sparrows and Lilies.
Because, as instructed by Jesus, I am trying not to worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough worries in itself.

We are on the brink of a new beginning. The past two years have been so overwhelmingly full of changes and obstacles, but we've come past it all. Sure, there are still things being worked out, worked on, and worked through. But for now, I am secure in my job situation, as is Eric in his. Caleb is a wonderful little boy, and such a light and joy that everything we've gone through is absolutely and undeniably worth it. Soon Eric will start his new job, we will start looking to buy a house, and I will begin taking a dance class and academic class.

The future is bright, and I am so excited for all it holds for us.

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